30 September 2013

252: Doubting My Stability Created Instability

Recently I saw a shift in myself in relation to another - my total experience changed from what I had previously experienced in relation to this being and within it - it was quite a shock.

What happened was there was a point of stability within me in relation to a specific point in my relationship with another, where I was not reacting - I was clear from the perspective that every time this point would emerge within the relationship, I had no reactions; no thoughts about it, no back chats about it, no energy even about it. I was 'clear' in that I saw it for what it was and nothing more or less. Within this, I could give a clear perspective and support in relation to this specific point, because I was not being influenced or directed by any of my own mental objections or instructions. I could assess within myself my point of self honesty, where I was in relation to it, see I was 'clear', realizing it wasn't about 'me' and thus could offer support in specific areas of the point because my vision was not clouded by my own internal judgments or ideas about it, sort to speak.

Now what happened was a moment of self doubt - a moment of questioning myself. I asked myself questions as to 'why' I was not reacting - as if that is something I must expect or anticipate. Which is quite ridiculous because in this, it's like asking for a reaction.... lol, yes quite literally, I was asking for a reaction and a reaction was what I got - more on this in a moment.

So I was questioning and doubting myself for just a moment in relation to this stability and clarity I had in relation to a particular point within a relationship with another being. I asked myself, "why am I not reacting... aren't I suppose to take this personally... I should be having 'some' experience about it, shouldn't I?" And in this slight movement as opening a door - what did me as my mind do? Throw a fucking wave of energy as reaction back at me in the form of back chats. It's like seeing a weakness in the design of myself, a crack in the foundation as the acceptance of self doubt. I swayed from where I was standing and my mind took total advantage of it. The next day I was consumed with back chats and thoughts and ideas as the energetic reaction apparently 'confirming' and 'validating' to me that I was 'right' to question myself - I was 'right' to doubt myself in the stability I experienced, and the more the back chats came, the more confirmation I believed I had for the experience as reaction I was having. It's like a closed circle of looping within oneself, the doubt feeding the mind, the mind feeding the doubt and so on and so on, the emotional roller coaster continues.

After about 5 to 6 days of feeling quite uncomfortable in my own skin and unsettled in relation to what I was experiencing - I realized I created this whole point for myself. I created instability within myself in questioning my stability. Why would one do that to oneself?

We, as humans, have come to accept and define all types of relationships in this world to be that of conflict and friction. We have been programmed to believe we must act certain ways within these relationships, define others as wrong for doing something to 'us' - never once have we stopped and asked - Can't I be clear and stable and have NO reactions, blames or judgments about what another person does? Aren't I responsible for every single point that emerge within me in the form of thoughts, ideas, imaginations, energies, reactions? Is it possible for me to not be directed or influenced by something outside of myself? Can we live a life of stability and clarity in relation to each other?

We have come to simply accept a life of instability, conflict, war even. We believe that we will not like some people or what those some people do and within this, we allow ourselves to have ideas about others, judgments about others, blame even towards those others. Yet what are we missing here? The reflection that is us in each other. The moment we are looking outward towards another and reacting to what 'they' do or say or how they live - is the moment we have abdicated our own responsibility within the power and ability we have to stabilize ourselves here.

So the point here that must be seen/realized/understood is that we do not have to accept a life of instability. It is okay and would be considered common sense that one is stable internally within oneself - where there are NO judgments or blame or taking things personally from others, because one sees the responsibility within the internal reality as being our own creation, our own acceptance and allowances, our own participation. We are doing it all to ourselves.

So suggest here to embrace the stability within oneself. Do not question or doubt yourself if you find yourself not acting in ways that have been expected of you. Do not sustain the pre-programmed existence where we exist automatically in relation to each other - believing we must take things personally, we must feel bad, we must feel like another is doing us harm. Realize that each being you come into contact with is responsible for what goes on within their own mind, as you are responsible for what goes on in your mind. And the moment you act in ways that are 'expected' as being 'just the way it is' - is the moment you have stopped questioning this existence of ours and this nature we call being human. The time we have here is the time to investigate all things and keep that which is good. Reacting to each other, blaming each other, judging each other, victimizing ourselves in relation to each other is not the way to self honesty, that is the statues quo of self deception. We are here to learn to love each other as ourselves, to give to each other what we would like to receive - so we must first learn to stabilize ourselves before we can offer this anyone else.

So consider redefining who you are in relationships - who you are within this world. Who you are in your Mind. Take a look at your life and ask yourself - is this who I've wanted to be? Have I acted in ways that do not support myself and others? Are there parts of me that I cannot fathom as to how I have created myself to act and be and express in such ways? If you are willing to become self honest and to once and for all, create stability within your self and within your life, where you are no longer a victim to others or your own self-inflicted emotional-ride - investigate desteni and the DIP lite course - it's Free. Give yourself the gift of stabilizing yourself and your Life here, and never doubt yourself when you see you have.



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27 September 2013

251 - Stopping the Self Definitions

I'm continuing here from the previous blog of self forgiveness in relation to self definitions that have only limited me within myself and my life and how I see they have influenced me in certain moments and so here the corrective statements as corrective changes I will make to ensure I no longer accept and allow myself to limit myself within how I see/accept and define myself to be

When and as I see myself defining myself within negative energies as limiting myself within how I see myself and who I allow myself to be - I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back to my body, back to myself here and do not allow myself to entertain thoughts or back chats or ideas within my mind that are actually self abusive and keep my trapped in ideas of myself that I have formulated yet are not real as I see/realize/understand that inferiority/superiority game I am playing with such definitions of myself and how through accepting myself within a negative idea about me, I attempt and try to go into the positive experience as a way to escape and not face what i am accepting and allowing and thus within this then creating characters of positive personalities that present a superior being when this is not actually who I am either and so here I commit myself to stop both the negative and positive self definitions I have given to myself, to investigate where they originated within my life and apply myself within forgiving myself for limiting myself within definitions of me that exist only within my mind and without the practical physical consideration of what Life is and who I really am as Life and the value that is equal for All here within/as this physical reality

When and as I see myself comparing myself and judging myself in relation to others within fear of how they see me or that they will judge me as I have judged myself - I stop and I breathe and I let go of the ideas about me that are influencing me in such an application of thinking and believing I must be a certain way for others to accept me - I see/realize and understand that I am the one defining myself in such a way where I then look to others to prove me wrong, to make me feel like I am not what I have accepted and allowed myself to be within my own self definitions and so here I see, realize and understand the responsibility that i have to stop attempting to seek something from others to get me out of the experience I create within myself in how I define myself and so I commit myself to take back the responsibility I have to myself here, to how I have come to define myself and see myself within myself and in relation to others and thus I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to define myself in such a way where I see separation between who I really am and what life actually is - which is here within/as this physical reality within/as it's totality

When and as I see myself going into fear and resistance within communication with others, where I do not want to share myself and open myself up to the moment with others in communication in speaking about me, my life, my process, points I am facing and how I am living - I stop and I breathe and I ground myself out of the energy of fear I have created in the mind through defining myself in such a way that limits me within communication and instead breathe here, stand within/as my physical body and thus express myself as such - a human being equal in the substance that we are and thus equally valuable to share who I am and so I commit myself to no longer allowing fear based on limited self definitions to influence me within my communication with others, instead I commit myself to slow myself down, breathe and let go of the restraint of fear in the moment and allow myself to simply be here, express myself without self judgments or definitions of myself that trap me in presenting a part of myself that I think others will approve of or like, based on how I have come to define myself and so further within this I commit myself to source all points of self definitions within me as to where I came to accept and allow myself to define myself in such a way where I then think I must change who I am here for others to approve of me - I commit myself to stop existing/living for others and instead commit myself to bring myself back to the cause/source/origin of the experiences within/as me, taking responsibility for what i Have allowed within/as me as my thoughts, words and deeds and no longer accepting a lesser version of me that sees myself as inferior or superior to another - instead I commit myself to realizing the truth of the life that is here and that is equal within/as all

I commit myself to the daily application of self responsibility as writing, self forgiveness and self corrective statements from which I will/can support myself to live by to no longer accept myself as being separated from the actual life that is here by stopping the mind of self definitions that exist in separation - an illusion I have created and believed in to the extent where it influence me in moments within myself and with others - I commit myself to influence myself as self directive principle to no longer accept definitions of me that do not take into consider physical reality and the equality and oneness of life here that is best for all


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24 September 2013

250 - The Limits of Self Definitions

Here I am stopping and starting over and bringing myself back within the commitment and self agreement I once placed for myself yet gave up within the energies of hope and desire. The process of getting to know self, forgiving self and then actually, practically, physically changing self is not an easy process, yet it's one that I cannot deny nor ignore because I am always here with simply me. Everything that exists as me as thought, word and deed - is ME. There is nothing or no one outside of me to blame, to validate me, to confirm yay or nay to the ideas I hold about me, to give to me what I am looking for. I will never find an answer outside of the questions I ask myself. So I am starting over as the starting point from which I walk my Journey to life and my Process in general - getting back to the simple principles and tools that have brought me this far and I will trust within myself to apply and that will support me to continue walking this process of self honesty and self intimacy.

Here I share some self forgiveness for the self definitions I see influence me so much within my life, the characters and personalities I create from these ideas about myself and thus letting go of that which keep me from living to my potential, which I see is here, waiting for me... like I wait for change, the expression that is me, that is here as who I really am, is waiting for me to stop and realize that I will find nothing outside of myself. I will only find a life worth living within principles applied and LIVED as who I am Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let others do most of the talking within communication from a starting point of fear and self judgment where I tell myself that I have nothing to offer, nothing to say, I am boring and thus would rather have another speak as to avoid facing the fear of loss I experience within speaking about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid communication with others where the conversation is directed at me, within fear of what I will say and how another will see me – fear they will judge me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear another's judgment of me  because of how I communicate about myself, about who I am in communication – what I share and what I express, judging myself as not good enough and thus rather remain silent as to avoid the fear of how another will judge me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have nothing to share in communication with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as boring in communication with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and refuse to talk about myself and my life and my process with others in fear of them thinking I am boring and dull and thus become disinterested in me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk to speak within communication with others, or to keep it at a minimum in fear of them judging me as unworthy in relation to them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as unworthy in relation to others and allow this to manifest/be lived out as me through not pushing myself to speak about myself and my process in communication with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my self and my life as boring and thus not entertaining to other's satisfaction and thus within this fear others will not be interested in me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within fear of loss - losing relationships with others - within self judgments and definitions I have accepted about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others judging and defining me according to how I have judged and defined me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as boring

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as uninteresting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inferior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inadequate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as dumb

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as stupid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as weak

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as insecure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as slow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not able to be equal to others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not good enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not smart enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not cool enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself a lacking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as having a faulty personality that others do not like

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project all these self definitions onto others in fearing them judging me and defining me as these as I have done to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept others defining me as this as I have accepted myself to define myself as this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self definitions within my life and with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am not capable of being the things I believe I am without

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself to be without the proper personality and character skills that keeps people interested in me and within this attempt and try to find ways to be and act that I  think others  will approve of and accept me as and to within this, compromise myself within living for others and limiting myself within beliefs about myself that are not real but based on societal rules and standards in which I have attempted to live up to and which are unrealistic as they are based according to values within the mind and lacking the essential principles that is in fact equal for/as all – that all life is equal and thus equally valuable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself within thinking all the self definitions I have about me are forever who I am instead of realizing I can change them, I can change myself and thus I can change my nature

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within my very nature to be limited and lacking and without the essentials to ‘win people over’ within receiving their validation and confirmation that I am okay, I am worthy, I am acceptable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek outside and separate from me here, validation and confirmation within the self definitions I have given to myself, wherein I judge and diminish myself and then attempt to find a fulfillment or an upliftment from others as to prove myself wrong, that I am not these things I say about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that others can give to me that which I keep from myself which is self wholeness and completeness and validation that I am equal as the value of life, that I am not inferior and I am not superior – I am equal and thus equally valuable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself form the origin of life through defining and seeing myself as separate as these self definitions that are not within the principle of equality and oneness and what Is best for all as life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see myself as life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see life as more than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to internalize life to be within a polarity definition within my life and accordingly attempt to move from one polarity to the next as fulfilling the holes I place within myself as being unworthy, inferior and weak

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume others will judge me as I have judged myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect the worse from others as judging me as I have judged myself - accepting and allowing only the worse of myself as how I have come to define myself - this stops here

I will continue in the next blog with self corrective statements to apply and commitments to live


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18 September 2013

249: Stand Up... No, Really - Stand Up

Three years ago I was shown a way to stand that is an actual, physical 'standing up' and self directed positioning of self as being here. My shoulders are back and down, my chest is out and I stand, facing my world, walking with one foot in front of the other.

When I was first shown this supportive physical stance - there were immediate reactions. It was one of, "I'm sticking my chest out - this is being snobby". Just in this one physical movement of myself, attached were all these mental ideas of 'how' I was standing and walking. And in this, felt like I 'should not' be standing/walking in such a way - almost as if I was inferior to this posture.

I have since applied this standing of myself as my physical body. When I become aware that I'm slouching, I stop and I put my shoulders back and down, I stand up straight and I stick my chest out as no longer allowing myself to 'sink' into myself as a way to 'cave into' myself. It's interesting how much I never considered how I physically am here; how I move and position my body, how I stand as my actual physical beingness - that alone expresses so much about who I am accepting and allowing myself to be.

So I found this to be a very cool application and self support I could give to myself in no longer accepting and allowing myself to be a lesser version of me; I can actually stand up within myself, as myself, assert myself here, stand up straight and face the world - directing myself with one foot in front of the other, open to what is here - standing equal to what is here.

What is more interesting within this application, is I still have/allowed that reaction within me where I feel as if I 'should not' be standing in this position. It's like I fear drawing attention to myself. Or fear others are judging me for standing up straight - as if to think "she thinks she's better then everyone" and within this I can see how I have judged others that I see stand up straight, shoulders back and actually directive in their physical bodies as facing people in their world, and their reality as a whole. It's like within such a standing one is saying, "I am here and I am moving myself, I am directing myself, I am walking myself in such a way that I see is best for me - this is Me Here" - literally a standing up within/as oneself. Yet how I have come to define, interpret and judge the stance is within a superiority, a snob or someone looking for attention as one who would stick their chest out. Or even one that thinks of themselves to be better than others. It's quite interesting this would be my judgment of such a stance in others - only revealing how I was/have been limiting myself within actually understanding how a physical stance of our bodies can so much change the way we experience ourselves and how we accept ourselves and how we see others.

Within me standing and positioning myself within this kind of physical posture - I feel like I should not be standing this way - that others will see me how I have seen others in such a position, it's like a feeling of "I think I'm better than others" and "I don't deserve this" kind of thing - which is interesting because... I don't deserve to stand up straight and align my physical body with an expression of myself that will not accept anything less than who I am as a being of dignity, integrity, directive-ness and the willingness to embrace this life and walk with what is here? That is quite interesting the thought of deserving this, or not deserving. I see I am not actually serving myself when I accept such a point/reaction within me in relation to my physical standing. Instead, I only keep myself limited to a point of self-restriction - where I slump my shoulders, attempt to hide within myself, closing myself off to myself and my world - like literally trying to run away and not stand here. Like a crawling into self.

So this is a cool point of re-alignment with our physical bodies; directing ourselves as our physical bodies to express and actually walk/stand in such a way that declares - I am here - I direct myself, I move myself, I face myself and what is here and I do not accept anything less than what is best for me and thus what is best for all.

I will continue in the next blog with self forgiveness statements for the reactions towards this physical standing and commitment statements for myself that I can/will apply in the moments of physically correcting/re-aligning myself within who I am here as my physical body and how I direct and express myself.


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13 September 2013

248: Sinking into the Sickness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up within myself when I am feeling physically weak or tired

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately fall within myself when I am physically sick, weak or tired - to see that I have already created a consequence as being physically weak or tired but here seeing who I am within such a consequence/experience - where I will just 'give into' the experience and use it to fall within myself - to say within myself "I AM" this physically weakness and tiredness and I give up - and want to just fall into and as it within victimizing myself, pitying myself, and thus actually relishing in the experience of "I am falling" because of physically how I feel instead of realizing that even within being physically sick or tired or weak, i can still breathe and not accept and allow myself to internally experience a point of 'giving up' and 'falling' where I simply allow myself to 'not care' to apply myself in such moments, but instead really go into this point of feeling physically weak and tired

So just a point I saw within myself today, my head was achy and my nose was stuffed and I was sneezing - basically my allergies acting up and within this, slumping my shoulders over, no longer walking straight, shoulder's back, self directed and here but an actual 'falling' into myself like "I will no longer breathe and apply myself, I give up"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fall' physically within being physically sick, where I will no longer direct myself or apply myself within self movement or self direction but instead allow myself to sink into the sickness manifested within/as my physical body and want to just 'sleep it away' and although this might be supportive for the body - the who I am within this manifested sickness of my body is that of a giver upper where I go into a "I don't care, I'm sick, I don't have to care, I don't have to apply myself, I am free for the moment" which is such an interesting statement one would make "I am free for the moment....... to not care and allow my mind to give me direction, to be it's slave and not be self directed of how I experience myself"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom to be within the experience of giving up - giving into myself as a falling into myself of 'no longer caring' to apply myself, which implies I don't really care about myself, I don't really care about life, I only care about how I experience myself - and thus revealing self interest and where I place the value of 'what life is' and thus don't want to care enough to stop and change but instead perpetuate the state of my existence as being 'not caring' to stop, breathe, stand up and become self directed in each moment

I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to use physical sickness as a reason and excuse to go into this point of 'not caring' and justifying with it as to why I don't have to 'stand up' and can basically fall within myself in not directing myself in each moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose sickness over health as the mind over the body as my experience over what is real as life, what is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use sickness as a means to feel sorry for myself and to victimize myself within feeling like "I have no control" and thus allow myself to submit to this "I have no control" experience within me instead of stopping and breathing and looking at how I can support myself within such a point such as investigating why I am feeling like "I have no control" and why I feel I must "give up" and why I think it's "easier" to fall then to stand and so

I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate myself fully within every moment in terms of asking why I experience myself the way that I do, why have I manifested such a physical experience and why do I accept and allow myself to 'fall' in such an experience instead of standing within the physical experience as what my body is actually supporting me to see, realize and understand - that perhaps I required a slowing down and a more care-full consideration to my relationship with my body - where I am not supporting it effectively or where I am allowing myself to still fall within my mind that lead to the manifested consequences of this physical discomfort

What I see is that my allergies have been acting up quite a bit this season and really, after sleeping for a few hours, I woke feeling much better and stable and cleared up within my sinuses but I still see the initial experience of myself within this sickness experience today was as if I totally caved into the experience, I fell and didn't bother standing within myself to stop and breathe and not give into the experience of being physically sick or tired - where it's like I was feeding myself with these thoughts and emotions of "being sick", so like actually 'playing the role' as how one must act when one is feeling sick - instead of simply breathing, being here with the physical experience of my body as physically weak and tired/sick instead of creating a whole personality within it of "I'm sick" and thus sinking into this sick feeling. It's not bad that I was sick - yet the correction required is the who I am in such moments/experiences.

Thus - when and as I see myself experiencing a physical sickness/discomfort within/as my body, I stop and I breathe and I make sure I stand here with/as my physical body and do not allow myself to go into a "I am sick" character where I will physically stop directing myself, slump my shoulders and literally 'fall into myself' as no longer standing straight up, standing here - yet allow myself to fall into the experience of 'being sick', as I see/realize/understand that the physical manifested consequence of being sick is an accumulation of who I am in relation to my body and thus my responsibility to not continue to allow separation and the mental reality of me to influence or direct who I am and thus I commit myself to when and as I see myself becoming or experience discomfort and sickness/tiredness/weakness within/as my physical body - to remain standing, to breathe, to stand straight up here and find ways to support myself physically, whether it be with sleep or medication - the point being I commit myself to not 'fall' into an experience of 'being sick' but to remain constant as who I am and this process I walk of becoming self directed in each moment as who I am and to thus support myself and investigate the whys and hows of the sickness I have manifested - to look at what this experience of being physically sick is showing me and thus always finding the specific support here for me as my body in each moment and also I commit myself to investigate where I am still allowing myself to give up, to feel as if I have no control and to not care in thinking it's 'easier' to fall then to stand and thus walk my process of daily writing, self forgiveness and self corrective statements and applications as the process of changing who I am within each moment to no longer accept and allow myself to be a slave to my experience but to instead become self responsible for who I am in each moment, willing myself to become self directed and standing here to be a pillar of support for myself and others as I see is best for all



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12 September 2013

247: The Mental Me Won't Try New Things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider ideas for things I can do in certain moments as being self supportive or challenging myself to move past what I have accepted as my limitations yet not follow through as instead following the idea with back chats of "I can't do this" and "this will take too long" or "this will be to hard for me" and just accept these statements as reason enough to not follow through in moments where I see I can do something that actually supports me, challenges me and moves me beyond what I have accepted as what I am capable of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as incapable of following through with ideas I have as opportunities I can give to myself in moments where I will have an idea to do something, but instead just accept the thoughts I have about me, about what I am limited to and accept at face value the back chats that tell me "don't do it" instead of stopping and questioning this inner voice of me that says "this is not possible for you" as I see/realize/understand that in such moments I am not accepting and allowing myself to see what I am actually capable of but instead trusting this 'inner me' to stay the exact same way I have always been - which is secluded to a few tasks here and there that I am comfortable with, that I have established myself as able to do through pushing through 'those resistances' but not new resistances as I also see/realize/understand that this 'inner me' as back chats that tell me "you cannot possibly do this" with all the reasons as to why, are another form of resistance, resisting to look beyond what I am telling myself to see what I am actually saying to myself about me in relation to the ideas that I have that I might like to do, that I see would support me or others or that would challenge me within certain areas that I see I can specify and perfect still as a new skill

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within having an idea that I might like to do or that I see would be cool and supportive for me to do, to automatically react to it as thinking "no possible way" and then justify all the reasons as to why these back chats are right instead of looking at the practical reality of such a moment - whether I can actually implement the idea, how it would work, how much time would I require to complete such a task or idea, what would I need in order to get it done - instead of just accepting the back chats without investigating WHY I 'think' I cannot do it - find out for real if I can or not in no longer limiting myself in my process and in my life thinking I cannot expand myself in ways which I have not yet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear trying new things and ideas I have that I would like to do or see would be a cool thing to do for myself as self support and self development within thinking that I might fail or it might not work out and within this, giving up before I even try and thus keeping myself stuck in an experience of 'never knowing' and not realizing that if I don't even try I will not get anywhere and here I realize I no longer want to live a life where I give up before I begin, especially if fear of failing or something being difficult as I have seen/realize/understood that with self will, self patience and persistence, walking slowing but surely, one is able to move past any walls one create within oneself and so here a moment where I have an idea of something I would like to do or see would be cool to do - instead of remaining behind my walls of fear of a challenge, realize that it is another wall that must come down, that can come down - I simply must be willing to bring it down and thus walk through it and so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking through the various resistances I see come up throughout my day in relation to things or ideas that I would like to try out but instead fear it or rather fear myself within it, as these back chats of "I cannot do this" are actually a self definition that I will not be good at it or it will not work for me or I will not succeed and thus

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to define myself in such a way where I do not allow myself to expand but instead stay stuck in a moment of 'who I've always been' and just accepting this as the 'way I am' as what I am comfortable with instead of realizing that changing and moving and expanding myself within who I am and what I am capable of might be difficult at first or might be a challenge but this is nothing to fear - it's only the fear of it I am fearing and so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear and allow it to stop me from investigating ideas I have that I would like to try, investigate how it would work in reality, what it would require and thus determine if it could actually work realizing that the ideas I have that I would like to try out does not take a genius or any kind of special being, all it takes is my expression and my willingness to do the work - to just do it actually - to physically move myself in physical reality to implement and bring to life the ideas that I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate the ideas that I have in my mind and trust the automatic self definitions of 'it wont work' instead of realizing I have never tried and until I do I cannot possibly know if it will or will not and unless I do it, I wont know if I can so I must be willing to do it, to tell myself I can and then do it to thus prove, FOR REAL, whether the ideas I have will work or not instead of trusting the mental me that exists in fear in thinking I am not capable of implementing the ideas I have according to how I see myself in relation to them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist trying new things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remain comfortable in the space I have created as myself as how I define myself as what I am capable of or able to do instead of realizing the gift we have in this life to push ourselves beyond what we have accepted of ourselves and so when a moment of an idea presents itself that I see would be cool for me as support and development within skills that are practical - I stop and I breathe and I allow myself to look at the point in self honestly and see whether it's practical or possible without trusting any reactions as back chats within my mind that I use to simply justify why I cannot do it without any real good reason besides fear and resistance

I commit myself to try things I have never tried before, as the ideas I have of things I would like to do, before giving into the resistance and the idea that "I cant"

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to always consider practical, physical reality in the context of the ideas I have and from here determine whether it's actually possible before trusting the inner me when I say to myself "It wont work" - instead I investigate all things, and keep that which is good - that which is real - that which is possible and thus move myself physically to bring my ideas to life, to apply myself within/as the ideas that I have, give myself a try, allow myself to do it to see for myself, without assuming, whether I can or not, if it will work or not and thus knowing for real

I commit myself to realize that resistance comes in various forms and thus my responsibility to determine whether they are valid or not and so I commit myself as well to stop and question myself any time I see myself telling myself "I cant do this" or "this wont work" instead I see for myself in real time physical reality and not simply accept myself, as the mental me in the form of back chats, within the limited space of the mind

I commit myself to live in/as this physical reality and to expand myself into trying new things, to pushing myself to apply new skills, realizing that unless I challenge myself, I will always remain 'where I am' as the limited version of me that accepts me as capable of some things and not others and instead I commit myself to gift myself with the ability to try it, to go for it, to test out the ideas I have, to give myself the opportunity of self development and self perfection in creating myself in ways that I would like instead of accepting myself as ways I've programmed myself to be in thinking I cannot do this or I cannot do that

I commit myself to push through the initial stages of uncomfortability I might experience when I try something new or when I am moving myself to go beyond that which I have accepted of myself in realizing that change might be difficult or challenging at first, but that is the nature of changing our nature and so as I move myself and push myself it becomes easier and easier until only I remain as the self directive and self moved being I see/realize/understand I can actually live here, in/as breath, in/as this life

I commit myself to stop existing in the mind as ideas and instead live as a physical being in physical reality here




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11 September 2013

246: The "This is Me" Mirror

Today I came face to face with a moment as a reaction towards another; their actions and movements and in this moment, the self corrective statements I have told myself that I will live as the application of change, came through and immediately, through the reaction, saw the responsibility I had towards 'what' I was seeing in another.

What was interesting however, was once I had this reaction and then the the real truth of what I was seeing - as the ME that I have allowed myself to exist within and as, as it was reflected back to me in the mirror of another, I somewhat reacted to the realization of my responsibility - like seeing more of the reality of the responsibility I must take and have not necessarily taken as I have held onto resentments and judgments towards other's behaviors, so it was like this experience of "Fuck - this is actually me I am seeing, my responsibility - it's not about her, it's about me - fuck, I am that which I see" lol - it was somewhat funny because as I have been aware of this knowledge, it like finally came through today in a way that was more substantial and obvious and how I have been hiding behind my judgments and resentments in not willing to change - to be responsible for myself and how I live in moments and so this was actually a very cool moment I had today and grateful for the gift as another being here as a "this is me" mirror.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within anger and judgment toward another's behavior and action that I define as unacceptable instead of realizing that I have been living out this 'unacceptable behavior' as myself and thus actually angry at myself in seeing myself in such moments where I am not being self honest, but instead dishonest as denying the reality of who I am and instead of becoming responsible - stopping this behavior and changing this behavior - project my self anger for this unacceptable behavior unto another and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of taking responsibility for myself in how I live, how I behave, what I think, say and do and no longer automatically allow myself to define and judge another until I have investigated myself fully as the responsibility I have to who I am here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react towards the realization I had of seeing that what another was showing me was actually actions I take myself and I have seen this and see it more even now so clearly and thus when I see that I am looking in a mirror, react within annoyance that now I ‘must take responsibility’ – as if this is such burden instead of realizing the gift another is showing me as parts of myself that I was not yet been willing to see and here she presents me a moment of self reflection where I come face to face with parts of myself that I have separated myself from and had not yet taken responsibility for and thus the opportunity to sort it out, release it from me and thus correct my living so that I no longer exist in a way I am ashamed of, but instead free and clear from any destructive behaviors and patterns that just keep my trapped in the same cycles and thus also stops me from judging others for things existent within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to within realizing the points that were mirrored to me by another, say within myself, “fuck – now I must take responsibility for this – I am actually here” and to within this, experience this weight of sadness as a resistance towards realizing what I must do in relation to stopping the generational patterns that exist within me – realizing that all the blame and resentments I hold towards another are actually me and seeing this come more clearly here as my awareness, resist actually looking at the relationship I have towards this being, what I see in this being as it actually being the reflection of the relationship I have towards me, and the responsibility I have to no longer accept and allow it within/as me

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to use blame and resentments towards another as an attempt to become better than them – to make myself more than what is actually here as the source/cause/origin of me as who I have created, accepted and allowed myself to be and become and within this inability to take responsibility for what I see in others and bringing them back to myself to sort out and deal with, prolong the process of self perfection, in continuing to hide out in the ‘I don’t have to/want to change’ experience when I realize that this is the process I am walking and might as well become directive in each moment and in each relationship that I have as to not put off the inevitable – which is coming face to face with the consequence and creation I am responsible for as who I am here and thus I commit myself to direct myself in each moment, breathe in each moment, to stand aware of all movements within me in realizing that what it is I react to, how I perceive things, what I interpret my reality as are all reflections of what exists within me and thus I walk my process with diligence and determination to no longer accept and allow myself to abdicate the responsibility I realize I have always had and instead stand when I see what others are showing me in my judgment or reactions towards them – a clear image and likeness of myself that I have separated myself from as not yet standing equal to and one with and thus changing and so I commit myself to use the gifts here, to give myself the ability to become responsible for ALL parts of myself, ALL thoughts of myself, ALL actions I live in each moment to no longer project any of me separate from me here and instead be the change I want to see in this world, realizing blame, resentments and resistance to this realization as living the commitments I have made to this process I walk, are useless and only keep me from realizing what is actually possible within/as life – to become a being of true integrity, living out loud and without shame or fear of what/who I have become

And so I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting to the self realization in the moment as I react to another and seeing ‘this is me’ to not accept and allow myself to, in that moment, resist the truth I see as what is real and actually here and instead embrace and become grateful for that moment as what others show me as I see/realize/understand that others are here supporting me equally within this process for all life to become purified without separation, blame, resentments and fear and instead to become free within ourselves from the secrets we keep as who we are in each moment, as our thoughts, words and deeds, to thus be able to live out loud, in full expression, in equality and oneness as what is best for all



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10 September 2013

Day 245: Worry as what is Here - Reaction or Creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe within this worry that I am being a caring person

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed worry to exist within and as me as a negative energy experience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed worry to become an emotional experience within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I worry about others I am actually somehow assisting and supporting them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take on other peoples lives within the experience of worry in thinking and believing that somehow my worry will cause a reaction within another and will create some kind of solution for them - somehow justifying or validating the experience of worry within me as being something that will somehow, in someway benefit others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to believe worry, as how I define and thus experience it to be a real experience

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that worry is just a form of fear and paranoia within my mind as a projection of myself unto others - distracting myself from me here and the responsibility that I have as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see worry as a natural experience of myself as a human

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that worry will somehow cause another to feel better, if they know I am worried about them - then somehow they will find relief in this instead of realizing it is actually something I am doing for myself - to myself, as myself - using another as a form of distraction and excuse, focusing on other as 'my problem' instead of taking responsibility for the worry, and what it reveals, that is existent within me and getting to the bottom of why I am allowing worry to exist within me as I see/realize/understand that it is something I accept and allow to exist within me because in some way is serves my self interest or self definitions or relationships I have created towards others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use worry as an excuse to exist within thoughts and emotional, energetic experiences within me, instead of stopping and breathing and finding out why I am allowing this point of distraction - or rather what am I revealing about myself in/as the experience of worry within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define worry as something that defines me as caring for another and thus believe this is 'real care'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define worry as being something that I feel for another when in reality what I am implying here is that another cannot take care of or support themselves and so I allow worry to exist as a way to be a savior, to think somehow I am more capable of taking care of another's life instead of taking care of my own life - which I am deliberately avoiding in my acceptance of worry about others within/as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if I am worried about another person then that means I value the relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express this worry in the form of thoughts, energy as emotions and images within my mind as possible scenarios one might find themselves within and within this causing more energetic friction within me in thinking about another and then worrying about them and thinking that within this worrying I am somehow doing something of worth or value

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept worry within and as me without question instead of realizing it comes from a source within me that I have defined as 'natural' and apart of human nature

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use worrying about another as something that prove to me/them that I care about them and thus this makes me a 'good person'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use worry as a self definition to be self-righteous as a self definition of making myself feel/look good in my own eyes and the eyes of others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe worry is something that I cannot stop within and as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use worry to not have to face myself - what is here within/as me, looking at why worry exists within me - where it comes from and how I am sustaining it as I see/realize/understand we as humans have designed ourselves in such a way where we accept and allow ourselves to exist within a mind that serves only our self interest and thus not actually caring about others and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust this worry as a real experience as myself, instead of realizing it exists within the realm of the mind - the space of self interest and thus an illusion as I realize I can stop it in just one moment - as one breathe and prove to myself that it was never real as it has no measurable affect on the physical reality or my physical body unless I ALLOW it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think worry is a valuable emotion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to succumb to the experience of worry as being a point in which I can express myself as 'caring' and 'concerned' and to within this not take it a step further as a physical living expression of myself that will no longer allow the living expression of/as this world to be that of one that produce one to worry and so use worry to cover up my inability to live and act in ways that are best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use worry as a way to show others they are not alone - yet realizing no one can tell that I am worried as it starts and exists within and as me, and only through my continued participation and accumulation of it as an energetic emotion within me will I express it physically/outwardly as my behaviors and words - yet this takes a constant and continuous acceptance and allowance of it within/as me and thus if I express outwardly the physical expression of worry - I am then possessed by energy which is then moving/directing me as not stopping to see/realize/understand what actually LIES behind the experience of worry - the starting point from which it emerged and realizing I created it

So that was just some freestyle/freewrite self forgiveness on the word worry - I came here tonight not 'knowing' what to write about and simply allowed myself to breathe and look at what points were here. The word worry came up.

It's interesting because the whole time I am writing these self forgiveness statements, I see these back chats within me saying "this is pointless, there is no use to do this, this is not a real experience for you..." weird that last statement I would make to myself, who is talking to me when I say "this is not a real experience for YOU" wow - talk about being crazy with voices in our mind yet we don't stop to question those voices. We have so automatically come to accept ourselves as a being in the mind, we have so automatically set ourselves to be 'thinking beings' we cannot even distinguish which part of ourselves is talking to us - if those parts are 'really' us, if they are acting or serving only our self interest or what is actually best for all - or if they are just fragments of our imaginations that we have separated ourselves into/as and giving it life - giving it the substance of life as our physical bodies through participating and believing it is real; that we are only our minds and in the mean time not take notice or stand within the physical body that breathes - the real breath of life - where life is sustaining life.

Recently I have seen how quickly I move within reactions as energy. And while the 'worry point' is not something that was energetically charged within/as me, meaning I was not possessed by this 'experience' of worry tonight - the word was here as me and this is a point I have been pushing within myself to apply. To stop and breathe and really take a good look at what is 'here' within/as myself to be able to distinguish where things and points and perspectives I see are 'real' in terms of if they are valid and worth paying attention to or whether they are fueled and charged by energy as a reaction I have to something that acted as a trigger - allowing it to set of the whirlwind of internal movements and chaos.

So a point I have been working with... stopping and breathing and taking/giving myself a moment to be with myself, see what is 'here' within and as me as I see this is a much more effective way of living. Because when we act out of re-action - we create consequences we might not necessarily want to live through, something we see was not necessary and thus had to teach ourselves a 'hard lesson' when in reality prevention is the best cure. So I came here tonight with no ideas necessarily of what I should/could write about, but instead breathed and brought myself 'here' to see what was here and thus moved to write - trusting myself in the process and not allowing myself to stop myself besides the internal direction of the thoughts that attempt in allways to keep one 'down' and 'diminished' and in a state of self paranoia.

So gift yourself with the application of stopping and breathing. Determine and assess what you see within you; whether it is coming from a reaction as a rift within self or whether it is here, stable and requiring to be expressed; I realize this is what it means to live best for all; without energy influencing one, but instead self influencing self to trust what is here as the expression of ourselves in every moment. Of course it is a process, of stopping those voices in our head enough to be able to HEAR what is HERE - yet it's possible and I am seeing more and more the results of that.

I have 'seen' this point time and time again - when I look at the word REACTION - it is actually the word CREATION, with the words moved about a bit. We either react as 'responding' to something outside/separate from us here that acts as a trigger to 'set us off' and thus moves us to act in certain ways or express from a starting point of separation - or we are standing within/as Creation, as the creators - where we are SELF movement as SELF expression, making the decision to be HERE, utilize what is HERE, express what is HERE and thus free and clear to create what is best for all and thus leads to an outcome we do not have to worry about later. We don't have to worry about ourselves, because that is essentially what we are doing in our worries, even if we use 'others' as the point we are 'worried' about - 'others' are actually us and so best to bring self back to self, stand here and take responsibility for the inner and outer realities we have. Realizing that until we direct our inner reality we cannot possibly direct our outward reality and so this is where the process begins - of Creating ourselves and our Reality to be that which reflect what is Best for All as the real worthy expression of Life - Me, here, in/as the moment, of/as breath, equal to and one with Life.




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08 September 2013

244: Moving Forward

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look outside/separate from me here as a source from which will give me direction in my life, where I think and believe I require something outside and separate from me here to guide me, to direct me, and tell me ‘what to do’ and ‘how to see this’ thinking and believing I am missing some important information that once I have I will somehow come into a more clearer perspective of ‘what I should do’ when really I was within the experience of “I don’t know what to do’ in the face of challenges, of something I have never faced before, and didn’t know ‘how to proceed’ and thus within this experience of not knowing ‘what to do’ attempt to alleviate this experience of feeling inferior or inadequate or without proper information to take on the challenges before me and so within this

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to accept and experience myself as inferior and inadequate and essentially diminished in ‘not knowing what to do/how to proceed’ within certain points in my life and to within this negative experience and self definition of “I cannot figure this out on my own” look and seek for an outside source separate from me here to tell me what to do, to give me some magic answer, to tell me what I am missing and how I should consider the points I am looking at in my life and so essentially giving into the idea that I cannot simply sit with myself and determine for myself what is best for me, best for all, what is practical and what are solutions and so within this

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to see only the problems as how I perceive them to be, in front of me and within seeing the problems, feel as if they are ‘too big’ to really walk through and thus missing the practical reality solution in which I can live as myself and so here

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to see only problems and not will myself to see what is best as a practical reality solution

When and as I see myself seeking an answer or source outside of myself for direction, guidance or an answer as to how to approach points in my life, how to proceed, ‘what to do’, I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back to myself here, back to the awareness as how I am able to actually determine for myself what I would like in my life, what I am currently facing – removing all the self interest as feelings and emotions and reactions in relation to the points and instead investigate with real eyes what is best within the situation I am currently facing; seeing, realizing and understanding that no one can tell me how to live my life, who to be within and as my life as this is something I must stand within as who I am here, I must be my own self guidance system – my own self determining factor of what I will do and how I will do it and of course who I will accept and allow and not accept and allow myself to be within and as it all and so here I commit myself to  bring myself back to myself when I see I am in my search for an outside source to give me some magic cure that will solve all my problems, instead of standing within the realization that I am fully capable of doing such a thing for/as myself – to investigate myself, my life and what is here as my reality/points in my life and to thus be able to make a self honest, practical assessment as to what is best in the process of ‘moving forward’

When and as I see myself feeling inadequate or diminished or limited within the face of points in my life that I perceive to be problematic – I stop and I breathe and I bring myself out of the reaction as standing separate from the points here as my life, and instead stand within equality to what is here realizing, seeing and understanding that only once I stand equal – meaning without feelings, emotions, reactions, thoughts, back chats and so thus essentially without energy – can I begin to see with real eyes what is necessary in relation to what is here as what I am currently facing – realizing this is how I will be able to determine for myself what is practical, what is best and what is required of/as myself to live within/as the solutions that are required as moving forward and no longer seeing only a problem, but instead realizing that here too are solutions and so I commit myself to not stop myself within a problem I am facing, but to instead stop myself from reacting, breathe and to begin the process of investigating what is here for me, as myself and what is the possible ways in which to move forward, of how to proceed in finding practical reality solutions without the influence of self interest and no longer thinking and believing I cannot possibly direct myself or my life but instead commit to realize that only I can and thus only then will it be real as I for myself am giving myself the direction and the process in which to walk to find and live solutions I see are best for all/me


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03 September 2013

243: Some Perspective from the Cats

Here I want to share with you an interview that I listened to last night, from EQAFE - which is an awesome site sharing tons of interviews and perspective and support for those interested in getting to know themselves, the mind, life, reality - all things considered.

I listened to one of the Animals Series, Cats and Self Discovery part 3 - and this interview was not only timely and specific for what I have been/am currently facing in my life, it offered practical support that I can apply in my own life, to start actually living changes that I see I can and that are required to really get myself in a standing of becoming self directive.

You see, recently I have been having a lot of reactions to my own mind; to all the things going on 'in there', things coming up, thoughts, emotions and feelings and 'feeling' very overwhelmed in relation to it all. Within it, believing there is no possible way I can 'get through this all'. And while I was hanging on for dear life - moving myself to breathe - I decided to listen to this interview specifically because hours before I had a reaction towards my cat. He was 'pestering me' and I reacted within annoyance towards him and the back chat specifically was, "leave me alone."

I had listened to the two previous interviews in this series a couple months ago and found them to be so clear and practical in understanding the support I have here as my cats. What I am actually accepting and allowing when I allow myself to 'dismiss' them, or push them away, or not stop and breathe with them for a moment. I mean - with anything or anyone in our world - if we are projecting our shit unto them - we must realize it's not actually 'about them' - it's always, in all ways about ourselves. The gift of those around us, in all their forms - stand as a mirror for us to face ourselves. The catch... we must be willing to see what is right in front of our faces.

There were many points brought up in this interview but what stood out to me specifically as being relevant for me to see/hear is how I was experiencing this 'overwhelming-ness' in relation to all the points coming up, and within this wanting to give up, feeling as if "I can't do this" and the perspective given to this was a slap-in-your face common sense. As I sit here, in my cushy life, with food, shelter, water, clothing, able to educate myself and entertain myself - millions do no have even close to this. And yet, here I sit, complaining and whining and victimizing myself, when if I were to stand, FOR REAL, in the shoes of those that are in the shittiest parts of our current manifested world - I would not last a day. That is REAL suffering - that is REAL misery, to go without the basic essentials that allow one to live. So it was clear the irresponsibility and lack of awareness and even consideration I was existing within in reacting to my mind - reacting to an illusion that isn't even real, as my physical reality was still here, supporting me and providing me with the ability to survive. Take away my money - which would take away my home, my car, my food, my clean water, my education... without these things people go without everyday, and I dare have the audacity to complain about my experience? Man - that is the thing - we are reacting to our experience, an experience we accept and allow through not stopping ourselves in the moment we see ourselves in our mind - we can stop it in just one moment; that illusory reality that we've made up in our minds, can be stopped in one moment, as one breath and we can stand up within any emotional or feeling 'experience' we have, and become real in experiencing physical reality. The experience of hunger, of thirst... those are real experiences, not the feeling of excitement or the emotions of depression.

So this interview really assisted me in putting into perspective my current situation and reminded me of the responsibility I have and the ability even I have to stop myself - stop myself from going into and participating with the alternate reality of my mind where I conjure up feelings and emotions that I then victimize myself within - not taking responsibility in realizing it's my creation - it's my participation and it's not real.

I would suggest anyone to investigate the Cats and Self Discovery series on EQAFE (not only because you get a better understanding of the cat's standing in this reality, but what our relationship towards them says about ourselves and how we can utilize the relationship with them to stand up within/as the mind in becoming self directive principle as who we really are as life as what is best for all) and any interview on that site for that matter - as it is support in opening our eyes to who we have become, why we experience ourselves the way that we do and how we can STOP victimizing ourselves, how we can change ourselves as the responsibility that we have to the actual reality that is here, equal for all. So support yourself, support life and apply the tools available to finally stand as a pillar of support this world requires. It will take a process, yet every moment we have the ability to change. The question is... are we willing - willing to become as persistent as the cats, as our minds, in changing who we are here?

Investigate the Living Income Guarantee proposed by the Equal Life Foundation - an economic foundation that will support the ending of starvation, poverty, homelessness and the other unnecessary atrocities we have come to simply accept as our world. It's time we give our attention to the real experience of those that are really suffering and let go of our individual interest where we believe only we matter. We are the fortunate ones, those writing blogs and reading them - those shopping online and browsing facebook. What are we doing with the time we have? Let us do what is necessary to be done to ensure ALL have an experience of life on Earth to be that which we would like for ourselves.











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