30 September 2011

My Trip to the Desteni Farm

It's been almost 2 years since I have started participating with Desteni. For anyone who doesn't know who/what Desteni is - it is a Group of Individuals Coming together within this World, within the Principle of Equality and Oneness. We, as a Group, Stand Up and Stand for and Stand as Life. We consider that what currently exists as the expression of Humanity on Earth.... is definitely not what it could be. There is much suffering, much pain. There is abuse and war and exploitation. There is rape and murder and no trust between humans. There is the illusion of Love and the charade of Life upheld with an imaginary toy. Money. So together, We Destonians, come together to look at ways to change the current Human Experience. As we realize we are the Creators. We, as a Group, as a Whole, have accepted and allowed what exists on Earth to be what is It. Therefore it's up to us to change it. And so we first look at who we are, within ourselves, and apply tools of practical change, to be a Human that Care's for All Life, as ourselves, Equally. We consider what is best for All. So like I said, I have been participating with Desteni for almost 2 years now. Applying the tools, and sharing myself along the way. It has not been an easy process - as it forces one to look at oneself in self honesty - to shed light on the darkness we have desired to keep secret. To face it and to stand up. I have nothing but gratitude for this Process. After just a few months of participating with Desteni, applying the tools within my own Life and participating on the forum - I went into extreme Reactions. I was in a constant state of fear and reactions - to myself, towards others, judging myself for everything I did. And within this then reacting to my own judgements. It was quite a tough road for I walked. Shortly after, I got an invitation to visit the farm. Anyone who participates within Desteni is aware of the Desteni farm. It is where Bernard and Sunette and many others Live within the Principle of Equality and Oneness. They are the ones that started sharing the tools of self forgiveness and self honesty, breathing and writing, and showing others how much we have disregarded this Physical world we are in, because of our participation within the Mental Realities we all have. Showing how because of our separation to our Physical bodies and Physical World, through defining ourselves as Minds, we have allowed this Physical World to destruct, in not caring about it. So when I got an invitation - I was set. I was going to the Desteni farm - and I couldn't wait. I went for 3 months a year ago in May. Initially - I felt inadequate for going there - as my participation and awareness of Desteni was so new. I had only just begun to understand the Principles and getting to know these people, who were standing up. But I wanted to go regardless. I had the idea that it would be just what I needed - and I would find peace within myself. Well.. I found a lot more then just that. I got there mid day. Everyone was there, and they all came to greet me. I got a quick tour around the main houses and was shown to my room. It was in a building that some visitors had built just a year or so before I got there. It was quite cozy. A bed. A dresser, a desk and a small bookcase. All I needed. Those first few days, I wrote constantly. As I was having a lot of thoughts coming up, and at the time, I was still having reactions to thoughts coming up. I was very unstable the time before I went to the farm. LIke I said, I was in constant reactions to the thoughts I was having. It was maddening to see just how much I was thinking. It was like waking up within a tornado. So, I did a lot of writing to support myself those first few days while I was there. What I found to be so supportive while I was there was working with the Horses. They have 10 horses, each one that has a Human that takes care of them. Meaning - one person that feeds them and waters them and cleans their stables. That walks them to and from the field each day. When I first got there, I worked with Fidelis and his horse - well, wow, I forgot his Afrikaans name, or I don't know how to spell it, but in English it stood for "Big Man". That he was indeed. He was very big, but there was a gentleness to him. He allowed me to comb his hair and check him for ticks. I enjoyed him as he seems secure. the strong and silent type. After a month I moved to a couple stables over and worked with Leila and Charlie. They were a lot of fun. I was grateful for having the horses there to work with, as they provided support within being in the Physical. It is very difficult to be lost in your Mind when standing to these Beasts. Charlie especially - he would let you know if you were 'not here'. So it assisted being with him. It also taught me about responsibility. Every day we had to get up with the sun to feed them and take them to the field for their day. We had to clean their stables. And every evening we would have to bring them back and feed them. Looking back now I can see how it helped for me to realize that those things would not get done on their own. And in a sense, those animals depended upon us to support them in their life. Also - it was a consistent point everyday that we required to address. Being in the stables assisted with my stability. I got sick a couple times when I was there - and had to spend that time in my room, missing out on taking care of the horses. Those times I found less stability, as I was left alone, to myself, and in these moments my mind tend to go haywire. I realize now that I create the stability within myself, and it's easy to do with breathing. Yet at the time, working with the Horses was the just the support I needed to really ground myself into the physical - working with others and animals. Remaining here, enjoying even the dirtiest of jobs, like cleaning up horse shit:) For the most part, I enjoyed my time at the farm. I got to work with Sunette, and my Resonance. I got to chat with Bernard and do Mind Constructs with Esteni. I got to hang out with everyone else that lived there, and this supported me in seeing how people can practically live together within the consideration of eachother and what is best for all. Overall - what this experience at the Desteni farm allowed me to realize, it just how much I existed within my Mind. How much I let my thoughts take control and my feelings and emotions direct me. How much I defined myself according to the thoughts I was having, so much so that I decided to leave a month early. I was facing so many points that came up within me in that environment. There was nothing I 'had' to do - and I was left with a lot of time to do whatever I wanted. And what I found was me sitting in my room, thinking. Having ideas about people and the world and my own life, having then anxieties. It showed me just how much I existed within fear. How much I was not directing my Life - but waiting for someone or something else to show me what to do. I left a month early because I was not ready to face myself. I wanted to give up this Process - to Give up what I had realized within Desteni, and my self, and go back to a life of ignorance, where I did not have to take responsibility for myself or this world. I wanted to forget everything about it. But this was impossible. Because just months after being Home - my attempts to go back to my own way of living - where I didn't care about anything except 'fitting in', it failed and I was placed back into the position I was in when I first found desteni. Questioning this existence, this so called Life. And wanting Solutions. So even I allowed myself to 'run away' from myself on the farm - the experience overall allowed me to realize for myself, who I am and what I am willing to do in this Life. What I'm willing to Stand for, and what I'm not willing to Stand for. How to direct myself, decide for myself what my Life will be - and showed me just how simple it really can be. One breath at a time. My Desteni Farm visit was something I am so grateful for. As it assisted me to realize what I want to be apart of. And how I can create real change within this World. What is possible within myself and how we can Create this Change together.

18 September 2011

Are you Waiting for the Showering of the Universe?

"The more that I appreciate and show gratitude, the more the Universe showers on me." This is an age old lie - that is perpetuated in many different forms. Through Christianity, within the Belief, if I give myself to a 'savior' I will be 'saved'. More Recently it has been presented within the Secret and the 'Law of Attraction'. Abraham Hicks - and many other channels sells this stuff to keep people blind and bind to their ignorance. Simply - within this Statement, stand in the shoes of another. How about another this exists in Poverty, in a society without Money - where they have to scrap and sell themselves to feed themselves. Would this statement Apply to them? So, Standing EQUAL as a child in Africa, that is one of millions without food or clean water, can I say to myself - "The more I appreciate and how Gratitude, the more the Universe showers on Me" First I would say - what the Hell am I to be grateful for? For this suffering? For no food? For no Water? For no care of the Rest of the World - where people live within the illusion of Choice that they are able to pick and choose what they will eat tonight. This statement only supports the current Capitalistic Society. That tells you to consume and consume and be grateful that you are not the one that starves. This is Mind Control and Enslavement and to accept this statement to be true is Deliberate Deception - and we should be ashamed. WAKE UP. To make this Statement a LIVING Statement in Practical Reality - we would create a System of Equality, where ALL are supported within their basic Needs. Then All are a LIving Example of the Universe 'showering' on us. We will no longer need to wait for something to make us grateful, we will be living a System of Gratitude. Where we give to another what we would like to Receive - LIFE. www.eqaulmoney.org www.desteni.co.za

04 September 2011

Responding to "The Mind is not the Enemy"

Here is a response I made to a youtube user sharing the perspective that, although he agrees with the Point of Equality - he did not agree with, what he claims to be what desteni says, "the Mind is the Enemy" Here is what he wrote: Hey You're a great person, thanks for being my friend. Just wanted to share my perspective on Desteni with you and see what you think. I stumbled upon videos made by Desteni Productions about a year ago and I was really intrigued. They have some very unique perspectives. They stumbled upon some interesting information, but I'm not sure they know what they have stumbled upon or how to work with it properly. I like that they bring everything back to the Self. It's true: everything is about the Self. So, that's a correct/true point that Desteni makes. They also stand for Equality for All, which is great. Equality is an important point. I admire them for that. However, one of Desteni's main points is to negate or "bypass" the Mind (or mind-consciousness or Ego-consciousness) to get to the Self. This negation of the mind is what I definitely disagree with. Even though the mind-consciousness is not authentic to Self, it cannot be bypassed or ignored. One cannot just abandon it, like abandoning a broken car. That's just avoidance. That's like cutting one's arm off because it's broken. It's just silly. We must become conscious of shortcomings of the mind. That's it: just become conscious how the mind is not the true Self is enough, no need to completely abandon the mind. The mind is a tool, we just need to recognize it as such and not get caught up in it. So, if the mind is a house, we just need to clean the house, not completely destroy it. We still need a place to live, right? So, instead of trying to abandon the Mind (mind or ego-consciousness), we just need to develop our Self, more & more, bit by bit. We must go through the mind, to get to the Self. It's through, that's the key. To try to stop the mind will cause an energetic short-circuit (in the psyche). It's dangerous. If the mind is a broken car, then we need to fix that car, not abandon it. We need the car to travel with, right? So, let's fix the car (our broken psyches), instead of throwing it in the trash. As they say, don't throw out the baby with the bathwater. The mind just needs to be cleansed (just like a body needs to be cleansed of toxins). The key is to unravel the mind, to untie the knots that the mind gets into, to untangle the mind (like untangling wires). Trying to bypass, neglect or stop the mind is not practical or even possible. Again, Desteni has some good points to make, but the Mind is not the enemy. The enemy is confusion. The mind just amplifies that confusion. We just need to become un-confused. It's that simple. Here is my Response: Your words here expose that you have not fully read/understood/applied the tools/material that Desteni shares, because if you had - you would have realized that Desteni doesn't claim the Mind is the 'enemy', but that who we have accepted ourselves to be is that of a Mind Consciousness System. Generated and supported through participating of the internal mind reality, consisting of various dimensions of self. The Mind is who we have accepted ourselves to be - which is in fact limited, as we currently find ourselves in A Reality that is physical, with physical needs/requirements that does not need a thinking machine to support. Desteni simply says - take Responsibility for what Self Has created Self to be - which is only a Mind System/Ego System of Self Interest. Your statement, "So, if the mind is a house, we just need to clean the house, not completely destroy it. We still need a place to live, right?" implies excatly what desteni shares - that we have defined and accepted ourselves based on the existence of the MInd - as if this is who we really are. When we are not. We are simply Physical Beings in a Physical Reality. It is not about 'bypassing' the MInd - it is to see who we have become AS the Mind - becoming Equal to that and thus Stopping in Realizing it's not who we really are. We are, as i've said, physical beings breathing physically here. So - we breathe equal and one with our physical bodies - stopping our participation within the mInd - as it excludes and disregards the physical reality and allows the being/self to exist in isolation from what is really here. This is how we have separated ourselves. So at Desteni - we apply simple, practical and specific tools to take Self Responsibility for what has been accepted and allowed to be the Human Experience. Breathing - realizing the physical is that which allows us to exist here, so we become equal and one as the Directive Principle. Stopping our participating in an alternate reality within the Mind, where we only exists as judgments and projections and theories, not considering the Whole as the Physical.(All Life - Earth - Manifested Universe) Self Honesty, Self Forgiveness, expressed as the breath in every moment, and writing to see the nature of ourselves as we have accepted(as thoughts feelings and emotions). Stopping the automation of the Mind as the dictator of ourselves, and taking back control of who we are Here. Suggest to investigate Desteni more thoroughly before 'assuming' what Desteni stands as/for. Join us in the Intro to Desteni Forum - there we discuss points such as this and in expansion. We are a Group of People coming together within the Starting Point of Equality and Oneness - What is Best for All. Simple Common Sense. We are here to bring about a Solution. Join us. www.desteni.co.za/intro-forum

03 September 2011

Breathing and Meditation - is there a Difference?

What is the difference between Breathing and Meditating? One might say - nothing, they are one and the same. Are they? What is Meditation? When I first began practicing meditation - it was because I had read that it was a way to 'calm the mind'. To become centered and silent within. I also learned about through psychic development classes I had taken (LOL - sounds silly to me now!). We were taught to focus on our breathing, to take deep breaths and to just quiet this mind. This would then allow for us to become 'in-tune' with our bodies, and be able to open ourselves up to a 'higher realm', or whatever term you want to use. It was suggested to allow the thoughts to pass like clouds in the sky - seeing them, but not reacting to them, or not following them. To just remain with the breath. It was a cool exorcise at the time, however, realizing what I have now realized about the Mind - I see it was not an actual solution and did not address the truth about the Mind or the reason for breathing. Within Desteni, it is suggested to breathe. In every moment that we are Here, to become the Directive Principle as ourselves, as the Physical Body that breathes. Taking the breathe in - holding, seeing how/if our minds are moving, and then to STOP THEM. And to not allow them - in realizing they are not who we are in Fact. Then to breathe out, in self Honesty, as the Silence of ourselves is Who we really are. So the difference - Meditation - is to sit down, quietly focus on your breathing and become aware of the Mind. This is a 'for the moment' experience. Those of us walking with Desteni - Destonians, we become the breath every moment of our lives. It becomes a Practical Living Statement of 'I AM HERE'. Meditation suggests you to see the thoughts, but let them be. Within Desteni - we Say - Breathe and Stop your Thoughts - as they are a distraction of what is Really here as ourselves as the Physical. Meditation offers no support in how to 'deal with' and 'investigate' our thoughts. It simply supports the idea that we are our Minds - that we are thinking Machines, and just for a Moment we may quiet ourselves. It is not a Consistent Application. It does not Stand the Test of Time. Breathing in every moment Here, we Become Equal and One as our Bodies, and start becoming more aware of how much our Minds actually move us throughout our days. How we have a definition/memory/association/judgment/belief/etc.. tied to everything that exists in our external Realities. This is where we are able to assist and support ourselves to take back Control and to no longer allow our Minds to be the dictator of ourselves. Meditation is another way we Medicate ourselves. To numb ourselves to what we've become, instead of seeing, stopping, and correcting. Meditation is a band aid. Breathing is healing.